[cassian is? very surprised at himself? once what he's done catches up to him fully. jyn didn't flinch. she didn't pull away. affection is not something he gives out freely. it's not something he gets himself either. it's something to withhold, to reject or ignore entirely. but here he is, still holding the hand he just kissed like it's the best thing in the world.]
[her lips move over his skin when she moves, and he squeezes her hand again, surprised. he literally just did almost the same to her, but somehow even idle affection aimed at him is even more bizarre. mostly because it's... genuine.]
[jyn genuinely cares about him and he's known that for a while, but the extent to which he feels the same has always caught him off guard. she is so incredibly important to him, and he uses the word friend liberally lately, but somehow in this small moment it doesn't feel quite enough. he died with her when he always thought he'd die alone. she's here with him again now, and they're still a team in this weird path to living in so-called normalcy.]
[he doesn't really know what he'd do without her. but he doesn't want to imagine being without her either. it can't be love, because cassian doesn't deserve love. but maybe it's close. she's his family, and he's never going to let that go.]
[he presses her hand back to his chest and smiles.]
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[her lips move over his skin when she moves, and he squeezes her hand again, surprised. he literally just did almost the same to her, but somehow even idle affection aimed at him is even more bizarre. mostly because it's... genuine.]
[jyn genuinely cares about him and he's known that for a while, but the extent to which he feels the same has always caught him off guard. she is so incredibly important to him, and he uses the word friend liberally lately, but somehow in this small moment it doesn't feel quite enough. he died with her when he always thought he'd die alone. she's here with him again now, and they're still a team in this weird path to living in so-called normalcy.]
[he doesn't really know what he'd do without her. but he doesn't want to imagine being without her either. it can't be love, because cassian doesn't deserve love. but maybe it's close. she's his family, and he's never going to let that go.]
[he presses her hand back to his chest and smiles.]