Paranoia, probably. [a sad but honest answer!] I know I roll over in my sleep, but I have to see it to fall asleep.

When I am - was - undercover, seeing the door was a line of defense. [he idly taps her fingers under his. he wants to wind them together, but he worries it'll be too much. he's going to worry a lot of things are too much now.]

It's - [he pauses, again with that worry.] It's easier, with you. I trust you. But I have to see it, or I just think too much about it.