and it's not a lie! physically she is fine, her knees are going to be sore tomorrow but that isn't being hurt. he'd taken the brunt of her fall anyway and she feels stupidly guilty that her existence was enough to further his pain. how dare she take up space and matter in the universe and have weight.
emotionally it's a year ago again and that fear is so present and real still and she doesn't have an impossible climb to focus on anymore, she doesn't have a galaxy to save and a mission to finish. nothing to push aside that fear. ]
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[ it's not lying if it's just a noise.
and it's not a lie! physically she is fine, her knees are going to be sore tomorrow but that isn't being hurt. he'd taken the brunt of her fall anyway and she feels stupidly guilty that her existence was enough to further his pain. how dare she take up space and matter in the universe and have weight.
emotionally it's a year ago again and that fear is so present and real still and she doesn't have an impossible climb to focus on anymore, she doesn't have a galaxy to save and a mission to finish. nothing to push aside that fear. ]