[ he doesn't want to let go of his anger right now, because he's worried about whatever else might take his place. his anger is a comfort, and he understands more deeply now why it's jyn's default defense. ]

I have never been able to ask for help before. [ not like this. he lost in parents, fell into an anarchist cell, and they took care of him. the rebellion took him in next, but cassian always put off himself because there was never any time for that. ]

When I dropped you, it was like the universe trying to tell me... how dare you want something? You cannot ask for something, for yourself. I struggle with it all the time, and now to have this physical barrier.

[ he drops his head back against the wall, closes his eyes. his face is lined with frustration more than pain, preferring the emotional feeling to the physical one. after a few moments he opens his eyes again, looking over at her. ] For the medical, will you - will you come with me?

[ he knows she just said they're in this together, but he has to ask anyway. ] I am in.