Because I am terrified of her dying and it was the only way I could think of to possibly keep her alive. If she hates me, at least she is alive to hate me.
[ she knew he was concerned, she knew he didn't like this, didn't approve of the idea but was trying to support her going. it just hadn't worked well. ]
I can't marry a memory. But, it does not matter. It didn't work and now I am just going to...hope this doesn't go as badly as I feel it will.
[ jyn takes that in with a protracted silence. she was right, he was afraid and he acted so foolishly and doesn't even realize how damaging his actions had been. her hands clasp in front of her because wants to punch him but cassian would be charged if she got blood on the carpet. ]
You've seen the bantha shit she's had thrown at her already. From friends. People she considers family. You were supposed to be her constant. You don't have to agree with her. I don't agree with her. Working with Cassius is... dangerous and-- [ she pinches the bridge of her nose, careful to keep her voice low and controlled. ] You should trust her.
You told me that you can't see your future without her in it. Why would you make that your future?
[ there is a thread of desperation in her voice because underneath her own fear and concern for daisy, underneath her anger, she simply doesn't understand. cassian hates when she puts herself in danger, but he has her back every single time even when that means sitting back and letting her go. jyn is constantly consumed with fear that cassian is going to get hurt again and won't miraculously get back up, but she isn't going to stop him from being the hopeful, idealistic hero that he is, even if he doesn't believe it. ]
I am not asking you to understand. It's done. [ and it hadn't worked so why was there a need to discuss his actions. ] She is going to do this and I do sincerely hope she gets what she needs.
[ even more so, he hopes she doesn't die. ] But to answer your question, a future where she's alive is more of a priority to me than a future where she's with me. I will choose that above all else.
[ he shakes his head. ] It's done. Just give her the ring and she can do with it what she wants. It's all I want right now.
If you don't want her to die then help her! Force, you think abandoning her when she needs you is going to keep her safe? [ she swears a long stream of an alien language that does not translate but is unmistakably furious as the anger rises again. ]
Don't act like you are choosing anything but your own pride. You stormed a facility for Rey but you won't even support Daisy. [ her expression hardens into a look he has seen before when she faced down the man in white on scarif. ]
[ he wants to argue. he wants to shout at her and yell and punch a wall but that anger isn't going to get him anywhere. he'll unleash it elsewhere and instead, just turns on his heel and leaves.
nothing he says is going to make this better so he doesn't even try. he's done what he needs to do and now, he is going to go and get used to being alone again. ]
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[ she knew he was concerned, she knew he didn't like this, didn't approve of the idea but was trying to support her going. it just hadn't worked well. ]
I can't marry a memory. But, it does not matter. It didn't work and now I am just going to...hope this doesn't go as badly as I feel it will.
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You've seen the bantha shit she's had thrown at her already. From friends. People she considers family. You were supposed to be her constant. You don't have to agree with her. I don't agree with her. Working with Cassius is... dangerous and-- [ she pinches the bridge of her nose, careful to keep her voice low and controlled. ] You should trust her.
You told me that you can't see your future without her in it. Why would you make that your future?
[ there is a thread of desperation in her voice because underneath her own fear and concern for daisy, underneath her anger, she simply doesn't understand. cassian hates when she puts herself in danger, but he has her back every single time even when that means sitting back and letting her go. jyn is constantly consumed with fear that cassian is going to get hurt again and won't miraculously get back up, but she isn't going to stop him from being the hopeful, idealistic hero that he is, even if he doesn't believe it. ]
I don't understand.
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[ even more so, he hopes she doesn't die. ] But to answer your question, a future where she's alive is more of a priority to me than a future where she's with me. I will choose that above all else.
[ he shakes his head. ] It's done. Just give her the ring and she can do with it what she wants. It's all I want right now.
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Don't act like you are choosing anything but your own pride. You stormed a facility for Rey but you won't even support Daisy. [ her expression hardens into a look he has seen before when she faced down the man in white on scarif. ]
Get out.
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nothing he says is going to make this better so he doesn't even try. he's done what he needs to do and now, he is going to go and get used to being alone again. ]