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jyn ✧ (ง •̀_•́)ง ✧ erso ([personal profile] realists) wrote2019-03-07 10:59 pm
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[personal profile] evasives 2019-12-22 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she says she trusts him aloud but he can feel it too, he has a physical sense of how much she trusts and loves him and how much she wants him. it's just enough on both their ends to get her over the edge at last. he gently coaxes her through it, shivering when she whispers his name. he ducks in and kisses her, planting a soft line of affection down her jaw while she rides it out under his fingers. it's... odd, but not in a bad way, how he can literally feel the waves of pleasure even as he watches her beneath him, and it makes him feel so warm and so wanting. he slows his hand, but he doesn't stop kissing her, wanting to chase away her anxieties. ]

[ it isn't until she stills that he brings his lips back up, close to her ear. ]


Herb.

[ with an h! ]
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-01-13 05:02 am (UTC)(link)
[ there's such a calmness to her now, a settling of her emotions that cassian doesn't think he's ever felt before. she's tired and easy and trying to temper her breathing, so cassian just... lets her lay there, relaxed. she deserves this. ]

[ of course, he does not quite stop kissing her. he brushes his lips gently along her jaw, without any sense of urgency. it's soft affection over her skin, and he settles his hand idly on her thigh. he's still very much wanting and she can probably feel that, but he's very content like this too, happy to lay around and flower her with kisses. ]


I will carry you there. [ he doesn't say it like a demand, it's more of an offer with full intent to follow up, even with argument. she doesn't have to move yet, but he still wants to get back up. ]
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-01-28 04:44 am (UTC)(link)
[ yes it's so! he just needs some time! cassian doesn't get romance. he doesn't usually get softness or laziness, smiles and kisses and easy chatter. he wants to kiss her because he wants to kiss her, and even though yes, more fucking is on both of their agendas, it's just... nice to lay here now. the rug is nice too, but the bed is theirs, and that's his picture of romantic, even if it doesn't matter in the end to jyn. ]

Naked, definitely. [ he leans up and presses his lips to hers, trying not to linger too long. it's difficult. ] We both still have too many clothes on before the bed comes back into the picture.

[ his hand moves, fingertips skating at the edge of her underwear. ] I want to see all of you.
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-02-04 01:56 am (UTC)(link)
[ ♫ forest fire - brighton ]

[ he can feel that sense of peace, how settled she is from his kiss, and it too reminds him of the beach, of being ready in her arms. she wraps her arms around him again and kisses him back, and his smile threatens to complicate the kissing because it's so wide and so happy and suddenly he doesn't care about pulling her underwear off. he can feel how much she wants him too, and there's heat in his kiss, but it's no less languid, soft, and lazy like they have nothing but time. ]

[ which is true enough tonight. he slides his hands up and cradles her face. comfortable, safe, warm, kissing her all the while like it's a luxury he wants to drown in. ]


I already am home.

[ he is home with her all the time. that's not what she meant, and he is quite nestled in already, but jyn erso is home, and he is madly in love with her. ]
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-02-28 04:40 am (UTC)(link)
[ if he couldn't feel all the affection and love practically radiating at her, he might have felt awkward about being called a dumbo, constantly worried about what he says to her as it stands. but he knows that feeling now, implicitly, and it's love. there is a reason he called her home, and it's shared between them both. ]

[ he tilts his head to the side, planting a brief kiss against her palm. ]
You love it anyway.

[ he feels confident enough to say so, because even if they're still navigating this new part of their lives, it all feels right. she feels right, and he feels like he belongs. ] There is nowhere else I would rather be right now.
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-03-07 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he just got her off, she's told him she loves him, and he still gets a little thrill when she simply says "I do," she does love him anyway. he can be as absurd or ridiculous as he likes, she loves him anyway. it helps him feel better about navigating this new path with her. ]

[ he can also feel the way her desire starts churning again, which is great because his never really slowed down much. he laughs at her request, nay, demand, stealing a kiss of his own that is not nearly as chaste. he just wants. ]


Yours first. [ he doesn't have a logical argument for it. he's just being contrary like she is all the time. he doesn't give her time to argue either, sliding his hand down and sliding her underwear down too, pulling it down her legs and trusting she'll kick to help him out as needed until they're off. they're a mess, good thing she doesn't need them anymore! ] As long as you are with me, any number of places would probably do.
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-03-20 05:32 am (UTC)(link)
[ despite the glacial pace, she drags his underwear off rather rapidly, and then - that's it. they're both naked, and he wonders if it should be more terrifying, because there is nothing to hide now, emotionally and physically. he's not even pressed in too close, but he wants to be. ]

I never said no to those. Just later.

[ he can feel her impatience and her affection and her want, but cassian thinks his biggest feeling might just be happiness right now. he feels so lucky to have this, to have her. ]

[ he's hovering, but that's okay, because it lets him take in the whole sight of her. scars and freckles and flushed patches of pink as he lets his eyes wander, and it's such a fascinating display of trust. he smiles at her, warm and awed and maybe a little starstruck. ]


But I know what I want now.
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-03-30 01:43 am (UTC)(link)
[ the temptation to just shove her back on the carpet and fuck her there so they don't have to be apart is a strong one, but she scoots back and he resists. ]

[ he thinks about scooping her up, but realizes 1) she might fight him and they both go down 2) he wants to listen to her tiny request since she's allowed him so many of his own wishes so far. so he ducks in quick to kiss her forehead, then stands up in a swift movement, offering his hand out to help her up instead. ]
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-04-11 06:16 am (UTC)(link)
[ it's awkwardness that creeps into him when she looks up at him, as though he hadn't just spent the same time taking in the sight of her too. her gaze is warm and wanting and hungry, and it sends the smallest of shivers down his spine. he realizes her intentions two seconds too late, caught up in staring at her, because the next thing he knows she's yanking him closer, and the next thing he feels is her mouth on him. ]

[ it's a kiss, it's teasing, it's so much, and he closes his eyes with it, letting out the softest puff of air. he wants, but he freezes at the same time as it catches up with him what she's asking. he wants to give in so badly but he doesn't know how. doesn't know if he can. how is he supposed to ask? what does he even deserve? ]


Jyn. [ it's pleading, but not in a fun way. ]

[ he thinks it should probably be easier with her. he loves her, so much, it might be incredibly simple to just tell her yes, because everything is still caught up in an overwhelming sense of want. he should be able to just go with it. he should be able to hand himself over to her. he trusts her, doesn't he? ]

[ and then he feels guilty for a multitude of reasons, including but not limited to his inability to say yes, but he doesn't want to feel guilty, so he tries to smother the feeling, reaching out to settle his hands over hers. he gently pulls them away from his legs, nerves alight and worried but still trying to drown it out by thinking about how much he wants to kiss her instead. he coaxes her to her feet, expecting a fight and bracing himself for it, but she's pliant, easy, and the relief he feels when she stands up in front of him is like a river rush. ]


Will you persuade me another day?
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-04-11 07:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he closes his eyes when she says yes, breathing out from the comfort that comes from jyn. if there is anyone who would understand his complicated mess of emotions, it's jyn with her own matching set. the empathy bond makes it easier to figure out the duality of wants as it comes to this, to sex, but it doesn't mean they're suddenly going to be able to handle what it means outside the physicality. ]

[ but her idle affection and her words help settle him. ]

[ cassian knows what she's asking this time, both from her touch and simply in knowing her. a quieter question, something that feels like it a step one. he lets go of her other hand, settles his own at her waist. he ducks in and plants a soft kiss atop her head, letting her request wash over him, grappling with it and how he feels about her. ]


Yes. [ yes, she can touch him. he squeezes her hips, though this time in reassurance more than desire. ] You know I trust you, right?
Edited 2020-04-11 19:50 (UTC)
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-04-12 02:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ he can't argue. cassian hasn't trusted anyone outside of k2 for a long, long time, not as wholly as he trusts jyn. it continues to be a terrifying realization, but one he doesn't try to pretend isn't real. he picks up on her pride, however tiny, and he smiles - faintly, matching the size of her pride. ] I do not.

[ she starts to move her hands after that, and cassian just... lets her. it's a different kind of terrifying, but he welcomes it, keeping his hands at her hips if only to ground himself against the intimacy of it. ]

[ he shudders when her fingertips ghost over his length, and he battles with the urge to tell her to keep going and the uncertainty of what happens should he do so. her laugh brings him back to her, and he ducks his head down, pressing his forehead to hers, exhaling sharply from... all of it. basking in her touch and letting himself experience it. ]

[ he nudges her at the hips, guiding them both towards the bed. that's a much easier request. ]
I do not mind your hands. If you want to...

[ if she wants to touch him again. generally speaking, now or the future. it's in the trust. he wants her hands on him again, that's okay. ]
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-04-12 05:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she wants him, which has been very clear for a while now this evening, but he still thrives to hear it aloud, smiling against her mouth when she leans in to kiss him. jyn erso wants him, wants to touch him, is not disgusted by him. that in itself is another whole lot to deal with, so he doesn't, just surrendering himself to knowing it's true. ]

[ jyn climbs onto the bed and suddenly it's a lot easier to kiss her, and he loves her arms wrapped around him. but that's exactly why he'd wanted the bed in the first place; he wanted her to envelope him, and while the carpet would have allowed for the same, it's... different. he can't explain it. ]

[ he ducks his arm around her back, climbing up after her on the bed, and lowering them both down in the process. only - only his legs are 100% going to flop over the side. they're too close to the edge. ]


Hold on, we have to move up - [ but they are still a pile of tangled limbs, so it's gotta be teamwork makes the dreamwork. he tries to lift her to shove her up higher on the bed, but it's a futile gesture when it's one handed and his own angle is hardly stable with her arms still wound tight around him. ]

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