[he pauses for a second when she shoves the rice in her mouth, mouth twisting into the smallest of amused smiles. how is this charming him?? every times????? she's just eating, but she is adorable.]
Being polite is unobtrusive. That is... how I was supposed to be.
[ cassian is not a spy anymore, he doesn't have to be polite unless he wants to be polite. maybe he wants to be blunt and rude like his beloved droid. ]
[he takes a very small spoonful of his own rice, chewing idly.]
I don't know. [honesty...?? also weird for him. he doesn't feel sad or anything about it. it's just a work in progress, but at least he's accepted he doesn't need to be a spy anymore.] I am not sure there is much of me left outside of the Rebellion.
[ it's a good thing he adds the last part because jyn was gearing up to argue that there is loads of him left outside the rebellion because he is left, but then he makes his own addendum and jyn swallows the words back.
instead she touches the back of his hand. ] You have time.
[he flips his hand over to wind their fingers together, giving her a grateful squeeze. he does have time, more than he ever had before.]
And I have you.
[she's there for him. she will kick him out of it and argue with him about who he really is, and knowing that... helps. she reminded him in the first place there was more than just existing as a spy, it's only fitting she's still there to keep doing it. jyn sees him as more than that. it's enough to maybe make him believe it.]
[ that feels like so much for her, too much. what if she isn't enough? but he's holding her hand and she can feel his faith in her and maybe that is enough. maybe she only needs to have faith in him and he can have faith in her and that will be enough. ]
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Being polite is unobtrusive. That is... how I was supposed to be.
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[ cassian is not a spy anymore, he doesn't have to be polite unless he wants to be polite. maybe he wants to be blunt and rude like his beloved droid. ]
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I don't know. [honesty...?? also weird for him. he doesn't feel sad or anything about it. it's just a work in progress, but at least he's accepted he doesn't need to be a spy anymore.] I am not sure there is much of me left outside of the Rebellion.
[there's a pause.] But I am trying to find it.
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instead she touches the back of his hand. ] You have time.
[ fucking loads of it apparently. ]
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And I have you.
[she's there for him. she will kick him out of it and argue with him about who he really is, and knowing that... helps. she reminded him in the first place there was more than just existing as a spy, it's only fitting she's still there to keep doing it. jyn sees him as more than that. it's enough to maybe make him believe it.]
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Yeah.
[ always. ]