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jyn ✧ (ง •̀_•́)ง ✧ erso ([personal profile] realists) wrote2019-03-07 10:59 pm
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[personal profile] evasives 2019-10-20 05:17 am (UTC)(link)
[ there's no reason the romance can't continue after, can't continue up on the bed - it's still part of his plan, even if he has to say herb to accomplish it. but he has the chance to do something good and nice for jyn now, to bask a little longer in this particular comfortable haze of happy and want. ]

[ she wants this too, he can feel it; it's strange not to check in with words for it, but it's in the brush of her skin to his clear as day. it's a moment to be selfish, and jyn deserves nice things. like orgasms. ]


I think the first one is more applicable to me alone. You like when anyone is wrong. [ he kisses her again, biting at her lip while he slides a finger inside her; it already feels like so much more than he expected, even for him from all the emotion between them, but he starts to fuck her with his hand, eager to make her sound even more breathless. ]
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[personal profile] evasives 2019-10-26 05:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[ cassian laughs against her mouth, of course she likes when he's wrong. it's what makes him never want to be wrong, out of spite. but he's more than happy to take direction from her. he might be good at this, but only because he listens and he learns and it's better to follow her guidance until he knows for sure. good thing he's a quick learner. ]

I like when you make that noise. [ what noise? any noise! doesn't matter, he likes listening to the sounds he's drawing from her. ]

[ he full body shudders when she makes her other demand, unable to hide the surge of want that rushes over him, but following behind that very quickly is confusion. confusion and a little reluctance, and he doesn't understand why she wants to do it, but he doesn't want to talk about his own feelings so it's time for turnabout round two. ]

One day I am going down on you. [ he punctuates this with a careful curl in his fingers, hoping to distract her from her request by using two now to fuck her while his thumb finds her clit. ] But other things come first.

[ like her! she's gonna come first :) ]
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[personal profile] evasives 2019-10-27 12:30 am (UTC)(link)
[ cassian stills his hand the moment she clamps down, suddenly worried maybe there's a new line he crossed, but she isn't interested in stopping him. just pausing because she's still stuck on giving him a blowjob. ]

[ he recognizes the concern on her face via expression before feeling and tests just how much he can still move his fingers to push off answering. he still doesn't want to answer, so he just keeps at it, albeit more quietly so. ]


Not tonight. [ her face, her voice, the rise and fall of her chest, they all make it difficult for him to deny her outright, but he knows he can't quite agree right now either. maybe he can deflect a little too. ] Ask me again when I am not just thinking about being inside you.
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[personal profile] evasives 2019-11-14 01:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ he can tell she is not going to let this go from the tiny undercurrent of concern, but he is just going to conveniently ignore that! she's frowning like she wants to argue, but she does open up her legs again, so he leans in to kiss her, hoping to wipe it off her face. maybe he can just kiss her and make her forget!! ]

[ fat chance but he can at least put it off a little longer. ]


I am a little busy. [ as if to prove his point he starts working his fingers all over again, following what she'd directed of him earlier. he ducks his head to kiss along her jaw, her neck, and it is only half to hide his face from their prior conversation. ] I like thinking about it. I will like it more later, but it is not a bad picture for now. Fake words can come later too, you can come first.
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[personal profile] evasives 2019-12-13 12:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ make me. ]

[ he can still feel her concern, but the way she says it sends a shudder down his spine and force does he want her. he knows this conversation is not over, but he wants to do exactly what she ordered and make her come. even though it was always his goal, his desire for it builds tenfold from the challenge. he crowds up closer into her space, trying to drown away the tension he can feel from her with his own eagerness. ]

[ he feels that tiny little speck of rejection, and that's it. that's what this is. he doesn't want his own inadequacies to make her feel rejected in any way, because there's nothing he wants more than her. he lifts his head and kisses her hard, like he's trying to prove his own feelings as though she can't feel them too. it's biting and soft somehow at once, and his hand moves deftly between her legs. he is taking her order to heart with almost reckless enthusiasm. ]


I am not rejecting you. [ he says it quietly, shifting to kiss along her jaw in case she wants that little bit of privacy, as though he isn't neatly pressed on top of her and literally inside her. ] There is so much more I want to do with you, Jyn. Tonight, tomorrow, the day after. I want you so much.
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[personal profile] evasives 2019-12-16 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ it's clear he likes the sounds he pulls out of her, each one sending another surge of want through him that she can still probably feel. he always likes to know what the other person thinks, feels, wants, and having the bond force it on him is an entirely different experience. ]

[ she's close too, he can tell that much. even her question doesn't stop him now, fucking her as thoroughly as he can with just his fingers and the occasional press of his lips to her skin. ]

[ letting himself be wanted is always so difficult. it's hard for him to wrap his head around the concept, but he cannot say no to her now. he doesn't want to. ]


Okay. [ he doesn't say how, he won't ask for anything either, but he supposes agreeing to it is a step in the right direction. it's fortunate that he can keep pushing her with his hand, curling his fingers inside her. ] Let go, Jyn. Let me feel you come. I want to hear it, see it, feel it.
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[personal profile] evasives 2019-12-20 06:12 am (UTC)(link)
[ she is so close. cassian can tell, moreso than usual. but he can also feel that tiny speck of fear, like a dam trying to restrain her desires. she doesn't want to stop, she just... can't get there. this isn't enough, he has to do more. help her more. ]

[ he leans in and very gently kisses her, no expectations, no hunger, just affection and love, somewhat counter-intuitive to the way his hand works her over. he just keeps kissing her, soft and easy like there's nothing else he'd rather do. there isn't, he's not lying. he can think of nothing else he wants more than just being with her, in any capacity. ]


Jyn. [ his lips are still on hers, but his voice is soft. he briefly plants a kiss to her temple, sweeping his thumb over her folds before turning back on her clit. ] It's just you and me here. I promise, I have you. I promise I will catch you. I am here. Do you trust me?
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[personal profile] evasives 2019-12-22 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she says she trusts him aloud but he can feel it too, he has a physical sense of how much she trusts and loves him and how much she wants him. it's just enough on both their ends to get her over the edge at last. he gently coaxes her through it, shivering when she whispers his name. he ducks in and kisses her, planting a soft line of affection down her jaw while she rides it out under his fingers. it's... odd, but not in a bad way, how he can literally feel the waves of pleasure even as he watches her beneath him, and it makes him feel so warm and so wanting. he slows his hand, but he doesn't stop kissing her, wanting to chase away her anxieties. ]

[ it isn't until she stills that he brings his lips back up, close to her ear. ]


Herb.

[ with an h! ]
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-01-13 05:02 am (UTC)(link)
[ there's such a calmness to her now, a settling of her emotions that cassian doesn't think he's ever felt before. she's tired and easy and trying to temper her breathing, so cassian just... lets her lay there, relaxed. she deserves this. ]

[ of course, he does not quite stop kissing her. he brushes his lips gently along her jaw, without any sense of urgency. it's soft affection over her skin, and he settles his hand idly on her thigh. he's still very much wanting and she can probably feel that, but he's very content like this too, happy to lay around and flower her with kisses. ]


I will carry you there. [ he doesn't say it like a demand, it's more of an offer with full intent to follow up, even with argument. she doesn't have to move yet, but he still wants to get back up. ]
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-01-28 04:44 am (UTC)(link)
[ yes it's so! he just needs some time! cassian doesn't get romance. he doesn't usually get softness or laziness, smiles and kisses and easy chatter. he wants to kiss her because he wants to kiss her, and even though yes, more fucking is on both of their agendas, it's just... nice to lay here now. the rug is nice too, but the bed is theirs, and that's his picture of romantic, even if it doesn't matter in the end to jyn. ]

Naked, definitely. [ he leans up and presses his lips to hers, trying not to linger too long. it's difficult. ] We both still have too many clothes on before the bed comes back into the picture.

[ his hand moves, fingertips skating at the edge of her underwear. ] I want to see all of you.
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-02-04 01:56 am (UTC)(link)
[ ♫ forest fire - brighton ]

[ he can feel that sense of peace, how settled she is from his kiss, and it too reminds him of the beach, of being ready in her arms. she wraps her arms around him again and kisses him back, and his smile threatens to complicate the kissing because it's so wide and so happy and suddenly he doesn't care about pulling her underwear off. he can feel how much she wants him too, and there's heat in his kiss, but it's no less languid, soft, and lazy like they have nothing but time. ]

[ which is true enough tonight. he slides his hands up and cradles her face. comfortable, safe, warm, kissing her all the while like it's a luxury he wants to drown in. ]


I already am home.

[ he is home with her all the time. that's not what she meant, and he is quite nestled in already, but jyn erso is home, and he is madly in love with her. ]
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-02-28 04:40 am (UTC)(link)
[ if he couldn't feel all the affection and love practically radiating at her, he might have felt awkward about being called a dumbo, constantly worried about what he says to her as it stands. but he knows that feeling now, implicitly, and it's love. there is a reason he called her home, and it's shared between them both. ]

[ he tilts his head to the side, planting a brief kiss against her palm. ]
You love it anyway.

[ he feels confident enough to say so, because even if they're still navigating this new part of their lives, it all feels right. she feels right, and he feels like he belongs. ] There is nowhere else I would rather be right now.
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[personal profile] evasives 2020-03-07 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he just got her off, she's told him she loves him, and he still gets a little thrill when she simply says "I do," she does love him anyway. he can be as absurd or ridiculous as he likes, she loves him anyway. it helps him feel better about navigating this new path with her. ]

[ he can also feel the way her desire starts churning again, which is great because his never really slowed down much. he laughs at her request, nay, demand, stealing a kiss of his own that is not nearly as chaste. he just wants. ]


Yours first. [ he doesn't have a logical argument for it. he's just being contrary like she is all the time. he doesn't give her time to argue either, sliding his hand down and sliding her underwear down too, pulling it down her legs and trusting she'll kick to help him out as needed until they're off. they're a mess, good thing she doesn't need them anymore! ] As long as you are with me, any number of places would probably do.

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