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[he looks at her face. and jyn's face. he looks back and forth between them and kind of wonders if he should regretting any of his life choices?]
I can see it, yes. [the kitten swats her paw out towards his face, but he doesn't even blink.] It does not change my answer.
I can see it, yes. [the kitten swats her paw out towards his face, but he doesn't even blink.] It does not change my answer.
[ jyn looks down at the cat. ] He's too strong for us, Raddus. [ she looks back at cassian but whatever she was going to say gets lost as she's momentarily distracted by how close they are, how easy this all is, how absolutely dumbfounding all this ease is. her mouth opens a little in surprise. ]
[he smiles like he wants to laugh, and the look is stuck on her face when he catches her gaze, before he too is caught up in how close they are.]
[close enough that her breath fans over his face, and his smile gives way to some of his own surprise. the strangest thing about being so near to her is how easy it feels. safe. like he doesn't want to back away.]
[then the cat bops him on the nose and it startles him enough that he scrunches up his face.]
[close enough that her breath fans over his face, and his smile gives way to some of his own surprise. the strangest thing about being so near to her is how easy it feels. safe. like he doesn't want to back away.]
[then the cat bops him on the nose and it startles him enough that he scrunches up his face.]
She'll sway you, [ jyn intones sagely, as if she knows how the future is going to unfold. cassian has a soft spot for lonely, feral beasts, eventually he will give in to that softness and crumple like wet tissue. the same could be said about her, but she's not the one at an impasse with an animal.
stuck by the sweetness of cassian playing with the tiny creature, bopping its nose, she quickly stretches up on her tiptoes to bop him on the nose. with her lips. a swift, impossibly fast peck on the nose before she falls off tiptoe and quickly sweeps away to throw herself on the couch.
to acclimate the cat, of course. ]
stuck by the sweetness of cassian playing with the tiny creature, bopping its nose, she quickly stretches up on her tiptoes to bop him on the nose. with her lips. a swift, impossibly fast peck on the nose before she falls off tiptoe and quickly sweeps away to throw herself on the couch.
to acclimate the cat, of course. ]
[he wants to argue. but deep down he has a feeling jyn is correct. he already let the cat follow him inside.]
[the argument is completely tabled when she leans up and kisses him on the nose, a mimicry of his teasing the cat. he blinks with surprise, still silenced by it even as she makes her way to flop over on the couch.]
[he can't tell if it's running away or just jyn being jyn, but it's the second time she's kissed him in a very short window, with very clear intent. it feels... nice, if not kind of confusing, but he's not very used to affection so he assumes that's probably normal.]
No she won't. [it sounds very distracted. the pot bubbles behind him and breaks him out of his stupor, scrambling back to stir it before it overflows.]
[the argument is completely tabled when she leans up and kisses him on the nose, a mimicry of his teasing the cat. he blinks with surprise, still silenced by it even as she makes her way to flop over on the couch.]
[he can't tell if it's running away or just jyn being jyn, but it's the second time she's kissed him in a very short window, with very clear intent. it feels... nice, if not kind of confusing, but he's not very used to affection so he assumes that's probably normal.]
No she won't. [it sounds very distracted. the pot bubbles behind him and breaks him out of his stupor, scrambling back to stir it before it overflows.]
[so in conclusion, dancing makes cassian's back hurt. that's two separate cases now where the soreness seeped in to an unexpected harshness, but then again, he's probably not used to moving that way. dancing is a different flexibility. running is easier because it's familiar to his muscles, but he'll probably be dealing with a bad back for whatever amount of time he ends up spending in riverview. he could... do something about it, but he also hates acknowledging weakness. he signals to jyn he needs to leave the rave, and she barely hesitates in slipping beside him to weave outside.]
[once they're outside and there's no one around, he lets himself grimace and slouch over. the rave wasn't too far from their apartment, but they still walked. they gotta walk back. the quiet between them isn't unusual, it's even welcome after the loud music inside, although the pace is kept slow on his part.]
[after a while, he reaches out and rests his hand on her arm for balance. he pauses for a moment to try and figure out that balance for the rest of the few blocks to their apartment.]
I might need to use your arm. [as though he isn't already. as though he's not thinking he'll probably need to lean on her a little bit too.]
[once they're outside and there's no one around, he lets himself grimace and slouch over. the rave wasn't too far from their apartment, but they still walked. they gotta walk back. the quiet between them isn't unusual, it's even welcome after the loud music inside, although the pace is kept slow on his part.]
[after a while, he reaches out and rests his hand on her arm for balance. he pauses for a moment to try and figure out that balance for the rest of the few blocks to their apartment.]
I might need to use your arm. [as though he isn't already. as though he's not thinking he'll probably need to lean on her a little bit too.]
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[ jyn's a little sweaty and she almost feels bad before she remembers it's better than blood and sand and tears. they can deal with sweat. the mild breeze does feel nice on her warm skin though. she adjusts her arm automatically to make it easier for cassian to grip. ]
Yeah? Didn't notice. [ he is already holding on, jyn feels like it's fair that she tease him for pointing out the obvious. ] How bad is it?
[ should they have left earlier? if so she will be a little peeved that he didn't say anything sooner, but she figures she would be as stubborn and in denial if her shoulder was hurting. which it isn't, for once, having held her drink in that hand for the majority of the rave. ]
Yeah? Didn't notice. [ he is already holding on, jyn feels like it's fair that she tease him for pointing out the obvious. ] How bad is it?
[ should they have left earlier? if so she will be a little peeved that he didn't say anything sooner, but she figures she would be as stubborn and in denial if her shoulder was hurting. which it isn't, for once, having held her drink in that hand for the majority of the rave. ]
[the sweat from dancing is much better than the sweat of battle. he doesn't care either, leaning in closer and putting more of his weight in her direction. he just lets out a little huff at her teasing.]
It's - [honesty, even if they're not in their apartment yet.] It hurts. No, we did not need to leave earlier. [he knows she was thinking it.] I think it's dancing. It's more like a numb pain for a while, which is normal after a long day, but now it's more like pressure.
It's - [honesty, even if they're not in their apartment yet.] It hurts. No, we did not need to leave earlier. [he knows she was thinking it.] I think it's dancing. It's more like a numb pain for a while, which is normal after a long day, but now it's more like pressure.
[ he anticipates her question before she can even open her mouth and it makes a faint smile touch her expression. she shifts to take more of his weight, looping her arm easily around his waist without much thought. ]
If it was the dancing then we should have left earlier, [ she argues like it's habit to be contrary, it comes out automatically. ] Do you think another massage would help?
[ she doesn't know if the added pressure of her hands would make it better or worse but she figured she'd offer anyway. in case it would help. ]
If it was the dancing then we should have left earlier, [ she argues like it's habit to be contrary, it comes out automatically. ] Do you think another massage would help?
[ she doesn't know if the added pressure of her hands would make it better or worse but she figured she'd offer anyway. in case it would help. ]
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[it's a relief to lean against her, letting himself drop more weight and take it off his hips. he moves his arm around her shoulder, and it's a familiar loop, just more comfortable this time. it already feels better to use her for a crutch, but he's not going to say so aloud right now.]
We left before it got worse. Besides, I did not know it was the dancing until now. [so there.] Maybe. I will see how it is when we get home, once I am sitting.
[mostly he just wants to get off his feet. but the massage was nice. it might help? or is that just wishful thinking??]
We left before it got worse. Besides, I did not know it was the dancing until now. [so there.] Maybe. I will see how it is when we get home, once I am sitting.
[mostly he just wants to get off his feet. but the massage was nice. it might help? or is that just wishful thinking??]
[ jyn wants him to get off his feet too and while it's not too much further to the apartment building, she does wish they could just get a ride the short distance. a moving walkway, maybe. she drifts off into silent thought about what fantastical way they could get from point a to b, eventually deciding on jim's transporters, even thought she doesn't relish the idea of trusting technology to scatter her atoms and then properly reform them in another position.
she's contemplating all sorts of ridiculous scientific achievements and trying to remember if something like transporters were part of the files in the now destroyed data vault, when she realizes she's been silent for most of the walk. ]
We could stop at medical. [ since she doesn't pause or turn him toward it, clearly it is only a thought. ]
she's contemplating all sorts of ridiculous scientific achievements and trying to remember if something like transporters were part of the files in the now destroyed data vault, when she realizes she's been silent for most of the walk. ]
We could stop at medical. [ since she doesn't pause or turn him toward it, clearly it is only a thought. ]
[again, he doesn't mind the quiet, and not just because he doesn't want to talk about levels of pain. he likes the quiet with jyn for its own sake. it's not as bad as scarif can't be his only frame of reference. still, it's a relief when the building comes into sight.]
No. [THAT WAS FAST.] Not now.
[he definitely does not want to stay there overnight, and given they hour they might try to persuade him. or maybe he's just jumping instantly to the worst case scenario. either way, no.]
No. [THAT WAS FAST.] Not now.
[he definitely does not want to stay there overnight, and given they hour they might try to persuade him. or maybe he's just jumping instantly to the worst case scenario. either way, no.]
[ jyn looks askance at him briefly raising her eyebrows as if to convey methinks the lady doth protest too much. ]
Alright, suffer then. [ it comes on a soft chuckle, clearly in jest, clearly not surprised by his speedy negative on her suggestion. they both hate the idea of going to medical if it isn't life or death, they'll be fine. and if he isn't she knows he is well aware she will throw him over her shoulder and carry him there if need be.
right now, need don't be. ]
Alright, suffer then. [ it comes on a soft chuckle, clearly in jest, clearly not surprised by his speedy negative on her suggestion. they both hate the idea of going to medical if it isn't life or death, they'll be fine. and if he isn't she knows he is well aware she will throw him over her shoulder and carry him there if need be.
right now, need don't be. ]
I don't want to suffer either. [he mumbles it almost huffily even if she's teasing, but to him it's just... something to get used to. re-learning all his limits. of which dancing is apparently one of them.]
I don't want to explain to them what happened. [he wonders what must be in the records, because he knows the state he was in when he arrived was completely awful if not near death. maybe, if he ever went, all that would still be on file.] I need rest.
I don't want to explain to them what happened. [he wonders what must be in the records, because he knows the state he was in when he arrived was completely awful if not near death. maybe, if he ever went, all that would still be on file.] I need rest.
I'll explain it. [ she can barely think about it with feeling her chest tighten and a chill run down her spine, making her feel cold all over like she feels every time she wakes up from the nightmare of watching cassian fall in the vault.
but if it would make it easier for cassian -- the person the injury actually happened to! -- she would deal with the discomfort. ]
Look, I'm not gonna make you go, but I'd be going with you anyway.
[ that's just the way of it. sometimes they are just a package deal. ]
but if it would make it easier for cassian -- the person the injury actually happened to! -- she would deal with the discomfort. ]
Look, I'm not gonna make you go, but I'd be going with you anyway.
[ that's just the way of it. sometimes they are just a package deal. ]
[he looks over at her and feels nothing but... fondness. they don't talk about scarif as a rule, they just dream it and fight it for each other, but the fact that she says she would do this for him -]
[he squeezes her shoulder, hoping that suffices as a thank you, because he knows she hates them aloud.] I would want you to go. If I decided to go myself.
Maybe between the two of us, we could explain it all.
[he squeezes her shoulder, hoping that suffices as a thank you, because he knows she hates them aloud.] I would want you to go. If I decided to go myself.
Maybe between the two of us, we could explain it all.
We've done more impossible things.
[ dying was really more of an inaction on their part, but dying and still being very alive seems pretty impossible but here they are. surely they can explain some injuries with brief context clues.
probably.
jyn kicks the revolving door to get it moving as she ushers them both inside the building, automatically taking a single step toward the stairs before she comes to an abrupt stop. there is no way cassian is going to make it up the stairs, not even with her help. not to mention he rarely takes the stairs with her anyway. it's a split second decision before she moves toward the elevator. ]
[ dying was really more of an inaction on their part, but dying and still being very alive seems pretty impossible but here they are. surely they can explain some injuries with brief context clues.
probably.
jyn kicks the revolving door to get it moving as she ushers them both inside the building, automatically taking a single step toward the stairs before she comes to an abrupt stop. there is no way cassian is going to make it up the stairs, not even with her help. not to mention he rarely takes the stairs with her anyway. it's a split second decision before she moves toward the elevator. ]
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[he notices the way she pauses, like she's going to head up the stairs. it's normal. she doesn't step foot inside the elevator, he knows this; she climbs eleven floors every day. cassian... can't. he knows it'd be hell on his back, even when it's not already sore. physical limitations put a hold on any of his own elevator trauma!]
[but she moves them towards the elevator, and he frowns, wondering if or what to even say? he pushes the button and it dings while they wait for it to come back to the ground. he shuffles against her, like he's getting ready to step away.] I can wait for you, at the top.
[it will definitely take her longer to get up there with the stairs.]
[but she moves them towards the elevator, and he frowns, wondering if or what to even say? he pushes the button and it dings while they wait for it to come back to the ground. he shuffles against her, like he's getting ready to step away.] I can wait for you, at the top.
[it will definitely take her longer to get up there with the stairs.]
[ jyn could kill a man with her thighs from all the stair climbing, it's true, but the irrationality of her fear normally made it impossible for her to take that last step on to the lift.
this time the elevator dings, doors whooshing open, and jyn reestablishes her grip around his waist and all but hefts him on to the lift with her. the sense of déjà vu is almost overwhelming but she shoves it down with the rest of the feelings she refuses to acknowledge, of which there are many considering she still stubbornly refuses to grieve her fathers. she will not think of scarif, she will not think of the data vault, she will not think of the turbo lift down to the beach, she will not think of the beach. it's fine, they're fine.
she stretches forward to press the button marked 11, feeling her stomach swoop uncomfortably when it lights up and the doors close. ]
this time the elevator dings, doors whooshing open, and jyn reestablishes her grip around his waist and all but hefts him on to the lift with her. the sense of déjà vu is almost overwhelming but she shoves it down with the rest of the feelings she refuses to acknowledge, of which there are many considering she still stubbornly refuses to grieve her fathers. she will not think of scarif, she will not think of the data vault, she will not think of the turbo lift down to the beach, she will not think of the beach. it's fine, they're fine.
she stretches forward to press the button marked 11, feeling her stomach swoop uncomfortably when it lights up and the doors close. ]
[she all but lifts him up to carry him inside the elevator, and his stomach swoops from - a lot of things, probably. the fact that she didn't take his out, the fact that she could also physically lift him inside if she really wanted to. the fact that she is going up the elevator with him, even though she hates it. he can see how uncomfortable she looks as soon as the door shuts and it shudders into the slow crawl upward.]
[he rests his head sideways atop of hers. that will be his thank you, as well as an attempt to remind her that he is here. that they are not on scarif. that this is not the same elevator and they are not the same people from half a year ago.]
[has it really been that long? his stomach turns in knots and he finds that even when his back isn't hurting, he doesn't want to let her go.]
I am glad we are here. Together.
[he rests his head sideways atop of hers. that will be his thank you, as well as an attempt to remind her that he is here. that they are not on scarif. that this is not the same elevator and they are not the same people from half a year ago.]
[has it really been that long? his stomach turns in knots and he finds that even when his back isn't hurting, he doesn't want to let her go.]
I am glad we are here. Together.
[ part of her wants to shove him off her, just a reflex of being short, but it's drowned out by the part of her that wants him as close as possible. it's comforting to feel him so steady and warm against her.
alive.
her head jerks in a small nod, not enough to dislodge him from his spot. ]
I am too.
[ it's not a flippant reply like she might normally offer, it's honest and soft and grateful that he is here with her. she doesn't think she would have settled as well without him. ]
alive.
her head jerks in a small nod, not enough to dislodge him from his spot. ]
I am too.
[ it's not a flippant reply like she might normally offer, it's honest and soft and grateful that he is here with her. she doesn't think she would have settled as well without him. ]
[ ♪ fools - laura aquilina ]
[she lets him stay there and he softly smiles. i am too slips out of her without any sort of dismissal, and it makes him feel cared about. important. she came into the elevator with him. because of him.]
[he loves her. he does, doesn't he? he probably has been in love with her for a while. it's a terrifying thought, but he doesn't try to chase it away this time. it washes over him and makes him feel floaty. there's no jim smirking in the background, there's only the sight of jyn dancing and how easily she dragged him along because he loves her.]
[cassian pulls his head away, but only because he wants to look at her. the lights from the city reflect over her face thanks to the open windows, and he thinks about being in an elevator with her again, only this time they're going up - up to their house that they share together, where they live together; so much of being able to just live in the quarantine is because of having jyn with him.]
[he shifts a little, arm still at her shoulder for support, but his other hand comes up without thinking to cup her cheek. they're alive here. she's warm against him. his thumb brushes her skin, and before he can second guess himself, he leans down.]
[and he kisses her. it's very gentle and very nervous, because there's a small part of him thinking it's a mistake. that she couldn't possibly want this. that maybe he doesn't deserve the chance for this kind of happy. but jyn has always made him feel like he can take the risk.]
[she lets him stay there and he softly smiles. i am too slips out of her without any sort of dismissal, and it makes him feel cared about. important. she came into the elevator with him. because of him.]
[he loves her. he does, doesn't he? he probably has been in love with her for a while. it's a terrifying thought, but he doesn't try to chase it away this time. it washes over him and makes him feel floaty. there's no jim smirking in the background, there's only the sight of jyn dancing and how easily she dragged him along because he loves her.]
[cassian pulls his head away, but only because he wants to look at her. the lights from the city reflect over her face thanks to the open windows, and he thinks about being in an elevator with her again, only this time they're going up - up to their house that they share together, where they live together; so much of being able to just live in the quarantine is because of having jyn with him.]
[he shifts a little, arm still at her shoulder for support, but his other hand comes up without thinking to cup her cheek. they're alive here. she's warm against him. his thumb brushes her skin, and before he can second guess himself, he leans down.]
[and he kisses her. it's very gentle and very nervous, because there's a small part of him thinking it's a mistake. that she couldn't possibly want this. that maybe he doesn't deserve the chance for this kind of happy. but jyn has always made him feel like he can take the risk.]
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[ there is a distinct moment that jyn realizes cassian is going to kiss her: his thumb brushes across her cheek, he leans in, she knows it is coming. and then his lips press against hers and it's like a jolt goes through her, like she's been shocked.
warmth blossoms in her chest, making her feel warm all over. everything is pushed away and aside. all her fears and anxieties and all the residual panic that had settled into her bones the moment she stepped on to the elevator flutter away like on a breeze. it still takes her a moment to react and at first it is just her fingers tightening against his shirt, clutching it between her fingers as her chin tips up a little toward him.
she does want this, though she never would have thought cassian wanted this, and she's so blown away by the idea of cassian feeling anything for her that it might take her more than one moment to acclimate herself to the idea. ]
warmth blossoms in her chest, making her feel warm all over. everything is pushed away and aside. all her fears and anxieties and all the residual panic that had settled into her bones the moment she stepped on to the elevator flutter away like on a breeze. it still takes her a moment to react and at first it is just her fingers tightening against his shirt, clutching it between her fingers as her chin tips up a little toward him.
she does want this, though she never would have thought cassian wanted this, and she's so blown away by the idea of cassian feeling anything for her that it might take her more than one moment to acclimate herself to the idea. ]
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