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Just because I can does not mean I will. You cannot stop me from worrying by pretending you are not going.

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I can try

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Why? All it does is make me worry more when you are not being honest.

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Because when I am home you can see I am uninjured, if you know before there are too many variables

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My concern is not a variable you can control.

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I can control everything else surrounding it.

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Including lying to me.

I just want you to be honest about when you go.

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[ SHE WASN'T LYING SHE WAS EVADING. ]

Fine.

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[ SAME DIFFERENCE. he is the Expert. ]

Thank you.

I worry because I care, I am not going to... stop you.

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I don't like that you worry.

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You know it does not mean I think you are incapable, right?

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I know.

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Then why are you giving me a hard time?

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I don't know.

I'm still annoyed, fighting didn't help.

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You do not have to pick fights with me when the first route did not work.

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YOU picked this fight!

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I confronted you about lying and you have been hostile with me since.

I was not looking for a fight like you seem to be.

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Fine, you win.

[evasives]

I am not looking for a win either, Jyn. What's wrong?

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I believed her! And I told you what she said and all of it was wrong and I hurt you because I was too weak and trusted her.

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[ oh. now he gets it. ]

We were both going with what you had learned at the time, that is not weak. You did not hurt me with it, Jyn.

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I felt it, Cassian.

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Whatever hurt I felt was not your fault.

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IT FEELS LIKE IT IS

If I hadn't shown up you could have been a General, Cassian.

[ in case he thought she was only upset about one thing. check her reducing their combined impact on the war to simple grief that cassian could have lived. of course she needed to hit something. ]

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Do not for one second blame yourself for my choices.

There was no way I was ever going to be a General. [ there was no way he saw himself living that long, regardless of scarif. ]

I never even wanted to be one. What happened at Scarif was not your fault. Please do not blame yourself for it, Jyn. I don't.